Hey Ya.

Don't know how I survived the past four weeks or so.
Thanks to everyone for your support. Even if this will never be read; I simply can't say it too often, so this is the place where it shall be read over and over again.
I somehow knew things were coming, but in that very moment, I was not prepared.  It struck me straight to the ground.
In fact loosing someone, who was the defining thing in ones life for such a long period of time, couldn't be harder. It sucks. Pain and this feeling of not being able to breathe seem to be present in every minute.
All in all, 2014 as a whole hadn't had much good for me left. There was much fighting with or against what-so-ever, people died, relationships came to an end, much arguing...for me personally I haven't yet figured out who I am, nor where I belong to in this world more than ever since. At the age of nearly 27yrs. This is probably the hardest thing right now and the following might sound very selfish, but with seeing friends becoming parents, merrying their loved ones, or being successful at work, earning tons of money..."So, what have you got?" - I'm feeling lost right now. It's like when I was that 14yr old kid who wished to be dead one time. - Only that I got to learn, that even death is no solution for nothing.
 
So I continue trying really hard to keep me and my little world together...and hope for a better year 2015, '16, '17,... 

The song above is an excerpt from my favourite tv-series of probably all-time, "scrubs". It's performed nearly at the very end of the whole series, when everything turns out to be great for the protagonist...

#note: Not everything was bad, of course. I cannot put it in words, how much the people supporting me mean to me. People that let me sleep on their couch, or listen to me talking probably nonsense for about an hour or so, people that are trying to give me the feeling of not being alone, people that are constantly trying to distract me. I simply can't say how much you mean to me. I owe you.. 

Shivers.

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